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The angel and the devil
The angel and the devil Have you ever seen the movie The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnasus? In my small opinion, if you have a profile of Affair Link, this is a must see. Parnasus traded his mortality for love at the cost of his , when she turns 18, and as the wager comes times to be paid, he realizes the price he was willing to pay for something fleeting, so he struggles to not have to pay the devil for his prior want. Impulse! Control! Desire! Human nature makes us want to dance with the devil. For me that has never really had a cost, because I was always aware of the cost. The way that I have chosen to live my life always gave everything else in my life an expiration date. Recently, I have been torn between being an angel or playing with the devil. What I know about men is that I am most men's fantasy, because I don't have sexual judgement. It makes me appealing because there is never any loss of either side or<b> jealousy. </font></b>Until there is. Even being an angel, you can play with the devil. The dance is just different. Your wants are different. Your desires are different. Your control and your impulses are different. Affair Link is a unique scenario, because I believe there is an assumption in this circle that, of course there is a shelf life. This is a pool of people who create a profile for a reason, a time, or a fleeting desire. We are all dancing with the devil here. All of those things change at warp speed, at least in my world. Tonight I could want a MMF, tomorrow I could want a hug, and then tomorrow night I could want a stripper. Trying to be an angel in a devil's playground, full of every scenario and temping that you could desire is kind of pointless. Unless the person you are dancing with has the same impulses and desires. And then it is just meeting in the middle somewhere and finding the honest balance. I don't know if I really believe that men can really absorb certain fantasies as realities. I even think I am a pretty good judge of figuring that out also, at this point. I don't know if it is possible to find a man who wants to really have the freedoms that I have enjoyed thus far in my life and really explore any that I may still have. I have a friend who told me a while ago, not to sacrifice my idea of singular companionship for a man's idea of singular companionship. He also told me that his fantasy for me, was to own me, and make me sleep with random men for his pleasure. And then he cried the last time we had sex. Case in point. Fantasy/Reality/Angel/Devil. I believe the line I love the most. I am not here for a long time, I am here for a good time. I am very good at being most men's fantasy, because I get off of that...being an orgasm maker. I don't believe that most men actually really want that for longer than they actually want it. Fleeting desires, prices we pay. |
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We all have impluses. If, how, and when we choose to act on them is different for different people. I think is less about how we dance with the Devil, but how we dance with our demons. It sounds semantical, but there is a difference: our demons are as unique to us as our impluses. . In many ways, women have more options then men when it comes to sex. The old joke about men going out hoping for sex and women going out knowing is true on many levels. Nevertheless, to one degree or another, we all have blind spots. . Things we think we want, things we're told to want, and things we envy are all blind spots. None of them address what we actually need. I don't know you, so I take everything you write at face value. It might be that men can't really accept what you offer or perhaps you haven't found the right man or perhaps you are disposed to the men who can't? In any event, a good fit between people is not easy and never will be easy. To paraphrase the Dalai Lama, there are many paths to happiness, just because others are on a different path does not mean they have gotten lost. Your path seems lonely but only you know for sure. And only you know whether your path was worth the price. . I join this site a long time ago when I was questioning my path. The things I have learned about myself have come at a cost. Was it worth it? I don't know yet but probably. I remember some of the friends I've lost and wonder. . Good hunting for your happiness. . “Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.” ― Oscar Wilde
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