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Abandoned
Abandoned He probably don't even give a shit and on to the next poor woman that will end up like me in a few months. Abandoned, confused and wondering what the fuck happened. He seemed so sincere and laid back. Fun and our kinks matched So well. He said such nice things to me and treated me so good. I don't even want to trust Doms or Daddy Doms that tell me nice things anymore. Like they're all full of shit and just getting me to the point where I'm head over heels then... gone with not one word or clue anything was wrong. I told him once if I ever do or say anything you don't like will you please tell me because I don't want to ruin this. He told me "Babygirl, there is nothing you can say or do that would chase me away. I'm a man, not like the you chased for so long" I adored him so much. I would've done anything for him. He could've done any kinky freaky thing he wanted and I would've said yes please daddy thank you! Then out of the blue... nothing. He never demanded anything from me at all but I WANTED to do these extra little things for him. I craved to sit at his feet, kept my pussy shaved and always made sure I had a sexy outfit to wear for him. I would make myself lay a certain way next to him so I could hear his heart beat because I thought it was a beautiful thing. Even if my arm fell asleep and start feeling weird... I didn't care, fuck that dead arm feeling. I was listening to my daddies heart. When I would feel his skin start to prespire I would back off because I knew he didn't like to sleep hot. I'd back off and finally go to sleep myself. He would sit in this recliner I have and I liked to kneel between his legs, wrap my arms around his stomach, put my head on his chest and he would run his fingers through my hair. I felt so safe and special. Daddies special little girl. I called it "Daddy heaven" My own secret paradise on planet earth no other soul knew about. Gone. No word or anything just gone. I cry a few times a week when I go to sleep and whisper "Daddy why did you do this?" If he just wanted something casual and nsa he could've told me and I would've said ok cool. I'm gonna keep my search open then as we play. I cut off every guy I was fucking around with and he never asked. I did it on my own because I wanted to. I felt like if I want to fuck around on him I gotta find a guy better then him. I gotta fuck up, not down... just so much little things I'd never do for other guys. I truly felt like making him happy made me happy. I adored him and to him I guess I was nothing but something to play with until something better came along. I asked him if he would be my daddy and he said "Of course babygirl I'll be your daddy" with the biggest smile on his face. Lies I guess. I let my inner little girl cry over this anytime it's needed. The woman part of me has moved on, talking to other guys, . But I let my little girl cry as much as needed. He was my first real time daddy and he abandoned that little girl that he always encouraged to come and play. That part of me is so hurt and sad. Daddy left his little girl with no word or clue anything was wrong. I will not chase, beg or try to get him back. You can't make someone be with you if they don't want to be. Plus he knows where I live and has my number. I refuse to let myself take the blame on this one. I try once in a while but I cut that shit off. I will not allow myself to look pathetic, desperate, or anything like that. A few friends brought up... maybe he's married and wanted to live the fantasy. I guess if your careful, very good at hiding tracks and other things, of course it's possible. It doesn't matter now though because it all boils down to the fact that I'm more then likely the only one hurting on this. Hope you have a good, safe and sex filled day!! ?* |
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Sounds like your daddy got bored and decided to move on... Not your fault, just human nature sometimes... Find a new daddy and enjoy life.
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Yeah but aside from the play time I'm an adult. A "fuck off I'm done" or "I'm done" text would've been something a grown ass man would do. Courtesy. Oh well. Yeah I'm enjoying life. No worries on that. I do my own thing and don't hang around being weepy and lame. I just wrote this to vent and feel better. Writing helps me like that. Hope you have a good, safe and sex filled day!! ?*
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I seriously doubt it was boredom. You can't call that cause you don't know. I know I'm not boring. I'm a very good sub. I won't allow myself to let boredom happen. And how would cock worship get boring for a man? Hope you have a good, safe and sex filled day!! ?*
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3/7/2015 1:25 pm |
It wasn't boredom he was Dom u the sub. Great pairing the two of you but in the end his real feeling s for you put him in a vulnerable spot of him being submissive to you emotionally and he could not give up that dominant rolebeven if the only person who know s his feelings is him. He was losing control and he got scared. So not as Dom as you thought. It hurts you but without the hurt you couldn't feel the joys either tryband maintain ballence and keep living YOUR life . ........
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Cool thank you I definitely didn't even come close to that thought. It makes me feel much better. So again thanks! Yes I definitely do live my life. It's all good cause he was a fun, cool experience. So I have no regrets at all. Just the way it ended was the only thing that really sucks ass lol He showed me what it's like to be treated good and I got to experience cuddling and all that cool shit. When you fuck around nsa like I did for most of my adult life that doesn't happen. Plus I did get to start to rekindle an old fire with the first Dom when I started my search of February of last year. He is going to collar me but I'm not sure when. I'm not in a hurry but it is what I want. To be a good babygirl subby for a man that will use all my talents, eager to please ways and extreme submissiveness. Hope you have a good, safe and sex filled day!! ?*
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