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vacation from happiness
vacation from happiness so this is another relationship rant... (yeah like we haven't heard this shit before) I really really really like this one guy but I'm starting to wonder why. He's like the master of mixed messages. He's driving me crazy and the thing is it seems like making me crazy is his plan or something! He does crazy shit that pisses me off, when he does nice things I get the feeling that he's just trying to pacify me... To keep me around... So now I'm the fool... well I'm sure feelin that way right now. Sometimes I just think if I try harder everything will be alright... maybe if I tell him how i feel things will be better... BUT I must remind myself I'm not a fucking therapist I can change his ass, I can't spend endless time analyzing his ass trying to figure out what his damn problem is! because there is no fucking logic to this shit. There will be no more ultimatums. I want someone who actually wants to be with ME. I'm finally tired of this shit!! (they told me that I would get tired eventually.) So he may disappear... I have to remind myself that isn't a big loss. There are way too many people out there I could be meeting. So what do I have to say now... *I hope he will consider talking to someone (a.k.a getting some professional help)... he has way too many issues he needs to deal with. Like pushing people away but expecting them to stay... um hello that would suggest you have a problem. *never throw around the word "love" if you dont mean that shit... even if someone says it to you it doesn't mean you have to say it back especially if you don't mean it. (*sigh* I ment it I just wish he wouldn't have said it to me... lol yeah he loved something but that's not really love) *sigh* I'm tired now... I think I'll go work on my blanket (I've been crocheting again... it helps pass the time when I'm not working, doing school shit, or "other" stuff. damn I really did alot of writing... |
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