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Let's See, Shall We?
Let's See, Shall We? This is about the time of year that things go South really quickly for me mentally. This is the start of the real holiday season. People in love tend to fall more in love. Families have time to sit and spend time with one another. Decorations go up. Everything SEEMS so wonderful... for those that can celebrate it. Being single, this is a really tough time of the year. With my family a state away, I really can't justify the expense of boarding three animals to just go down for Turkey Day. Don't get me wrong, this wasn't huge in my family to begin with, but when you look around at other families and see there happiness, it's an eye opener for what you're missing out on. Christmas is going the be the biggest test. It's pretty much too late to book a reasonable priced ticket to head down there. And then you have the boarding of the animals issue. On top of that "uncle M" always buys the best toys for his cousins. Each year, this trip usually costs me around 1K. That's a lot of dough when you're facing a job loss. This is also my favorite holiday. I'm not sure if it was because of the presents (most likely knowing my greedy ass), but it's also the amount of time you can take off work, reflect on the long year passed and a time to concentrate on what you want to achieve in the coming year. I've done a great job at heading off MOST of my anxiety. Let's see if I can do it w/ depression. This is truly going to be a depressing season. I do have a few things to look forward to. Next week, I have two face to face interviews that will definitely turn things around if I could land one. They are for a significant amount of more money than I'm currently paid. They also offer a ton of new technology to learn which would obviously expand my current set of skills. This will certainly be a big test. Continuing to workout seems to be my best solution. ~AAS |
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Good luck on your interview - hope you get it! Get someone really nice and spend Christmas in her arms and forget about the worries! Good luck... Something interesting in my life: A surprise on my naked body this morning Come visit my blog to know what I get up to from time to time: [blog 4jasmine2]
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Thanks! We really don't get too much for each other (parents and . The cost of travelling down there, etc, is where most of the expense comes from.
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I don't blame you!! I'm the same way. There is only so much pushing I'm willing to take.
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Ya, I hear ya. I'm not the volunteering kind of guy. Too many people around me that I don't know... Could be a disaster for anxiety.
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Good luck on your interview - hope you get it! Get someone really nice and spend Christmas in her arms and forget about the worries! Good luck...
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You're right on all accounts. It's just a bit depressing nonetheless. All of my friends are all married, so looking for another single friend to hang with isn't really an option.
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Thanks!! I'm doing well. I've just been busy studying my job stuff (which you tend to get rusty on if you don't keep up on it daily). I've been off my servers for about 4 months now and am reviewing things so I'm ready for the technical interview questions. Blind dates suck!! My best friend knows my taste, so he's pretty good at matching me up, but he's out of girls to send me as well. They are all in relationships.
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Well yes and no... One of them is my mother's bday. Since I almost lost her last year (haven't blogged about that yet), I feel guilty for not being able to see her.
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Right now, for you, it's all about financial stability, so trips to see the family are out for the time being. I was home in October for a couple weeks, so I won't be going back for Christmas. Given your anxiety/depression issues, it would be better for you to have a few close friends nearby. I hope you find something productive to do for Christmas... You will need the distraction to keep you from going down the dark path (again). "My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer to embrace an early death." -Tupac Shakur
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