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Sometimes I can't explain who I am......
Sometimes I can't explain who I am...... I am an introvert. People always argue with me and say 'but you're outgoing, you're friendly, you're talkative'. I am. When I go out. Or when I allow someone into my space. I'd rather spend my time alone or with a select few, being quiet together. I don't talk on the phone much, but I will text. I don't do well with communication. It isn't that I don't care. It's that I suddenly realize it's been days and days and I've been wrapped up in thinking me thinks, roaming free inside my own head, and I've neglected someone. I don't mean to. Forgive me. I lurk. I watch. I listen. I'm not lonely. I can sit in silence for hours. When I do go out, I need recovery time. No back to back events, no social stressors the next day. I have to reset. I have to soothe frazzled nerve ends from the chatter of people. I have to wash off the makeup that I wear in order to be sociable. People will say 'You don't wear makeup'. But it takes hours to create that face you see. It takes a long time to get in. For me to trust. It means nothing to you and everything to me. I am an introvert. |
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Thanks! You too? No, no agony. I am very comfortable with being me. I have just found it difficult to explain why I get so quiet sometimes. I have found so many people are so uncomfortable and impatient with "quiet" and "stillness". When I found these words on a different site, they felt so right for me. Especially the part where days and days go by having no contact with anyone then I realize I have neglected someone. That one does bring about some guilt. But I am lucky, I do have forgiving friends who have known me long enough to know I hibernate frequently.
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Thanks! When I found these words I felt like they really explained me well.
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I would like to take this moment to welcome you into the club! And if you're not bothered by being an introvert, well, that's two more points you have earned towards any item of poetry you may wish to acquire. Most of my friends are either my brother's or sister's friend, or a friend of someone I've worked with. I think it's a great place to be, so I hope you don't sit and agonize over it. No, no agony. I am very comfortable with being me. I have just found it difficult to explain why I get so quiet sometimes. I have found so many people are so uncomfortable and impatient with "quiet" and "stillness". When I found these words on a different site, they felt so right for me. Especially the part where days and days go by having no contact with anyone then I realize I have neglected someone. That one does bring about some guilt. But I am lucky, I do have forgiving friends who have known me long enough to know I hibernate frequently.
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I would like to take this moment to welcome you into the club! And if you're not bothered by being an introvert, well, that's two more points you have earned towards any item of poetry you may wish to acquire. Most of my friends are either my brother's or sister's friend, or a friend of someone I've worked with. I think it's a great place to be, so I hope you don't sit and agonize over it.
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