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Nympho Back in the US
Nympho Back in the US 6/3-5/15 So much going on inside my head this week. So much weighing on my heart. Ultimatums and demands, how do you rebuild trust? Surely that is no way to start. Wonder why I still worry if you’ll truly still be there when all you do is reassure me that you aren’t going anywhere. As soon as the name is invoked your very manner and tone change and then you only seem to see me as an obstacle in way of your change Where are the lens of love and respect for the woman who stood firm by you through these 5 years? When did a take a demotion to the ranks of those you get your contempt? Why does it take her voice for you to see reason? Since when does another woman need to stay your hand from hurting me? Each time I think we’ve moved closer to an understanding you start to pull away. What role am I supposed to give up, your best friend, your lover, your wife, your mate? How much of us will you give away to satiate? 06/18/15 The Viking and I had an epic fall out a little over a week before our trip back to the states. I decided in the aftermath of that argument which included him telling me he wanted me out of his life forever as soon as possible as well as many other choice hurtful things he could find to say to me, that my only option to voice my not accepting him treating me as sup-par was to refuse to go to Turkey. He threw out my veto and the entire relationship plan so I have no way of knowing what he is or isn’t committing to with me or what our relationship actually is anymore. In the weeks leading up to this trip we were like roommates sharing a house who were cordial but not overly friendly. Aside from the occasional hug, kiss or grope the Viking would randomly bestow on me out of the blue generally accompanied by some endearing sweet nothing of everlasting love, also totally out of character with his actions. As I’ve told him repeatedly him saying the right things is never a problem it is actually backing the words up with action that is an issue. I hadn’t planned on telling him that I wasn’t going to Turkey this summer as planned until he left but he just kept on pushing me about the time I was supposed to be in Turkey with him and gushing over how much he wanted to spend time with me that I finally just told him. I told him to stop pretending like he really wanted time alone with me after he spent the last 1-2 months avoiding me as much as possible. When he can’t be bothered fucking me unless it is to mark his territory because he knows someone else either is or has been fucking me. When he tells me repeatedly and several friends that he’s a dictator in our relationship and I just have to accept it. Yep, not real conducive to making me want to fly a couple of hours to be treated like a 2nd class citizen, if that. When I can stay home and have several very sexy hot men and one very sexy hot woman love on me as much as we can schedule. Thanks but I’ll stay home. The Meet & Greet with the Mistress went fine but I didn’t expect there to be any excitement. She isn’t going to address any real issues. He isn’t going to if he doesn’t have to so as long as I don’t rock the boat it will be smooth sailing. I couldn’t care less at this point, she is the least of my worries. Why bother worrying about a Triad when the Dyad isn’t working and may not survive. I’ll be interested to hear if they actually worked on any relationship stuff at all while he was with her for the week. Even more interesting will be if he’s willing to work on any relationship stuff with me in the coming days. Being back home has been kind of surreal. I felt like my life in Italy was some strange alternate reality or time warp and I was just going to drive home to the house in Manchester. It has been very odd. Being home alone right now really made me realize some very interesting things while being back here. First and foremost is that family is not about blood it is about who will make time to see you when you only have a week back from Italy after not being home for 2 + years. Other than my favorite Aunt & Uncle and my Mom, my family didn’t seem to care that I was home. No one other than those few bothered to make any kind of plan to spend time with me. That also makes me see that my connection to “home” is more about the area and the memories associated with it than it is my people. Other than the people in a general sense of the people who live in the area not the specific people that I know. I got to spend time with some really great friends who love me and support me no matter what is going on in my life. Second, no matter how bad off I might be compared to now if the Viking and I split I would still be better off than I was before I met him. I would have lived 5 years of an incredible life of happiness unknown before. Many people never get that or anything close to it. I have an amazing life but it isn’t so amazing once the love, honesty, trust, respect, faith and shared dreams aren’t there. Which made me realize that no amount of creature comfort is worth sacrificing my self-worth to the Viking’s episode or whatever this phase he’s in is. I will stand up for myself and if I lose all I have with him then it wasn’t what I believed it was. Only time will tell at this point. Third, Americans and particularly southerns are really fucking nice people! After being in Italy, southerns also do not seem slow paced anymore. They are refreshingly quick and efficient! Hearing nothing but English being spoken around me was a bit overwhelming the first couple of days because I couldn’t just tune out all the extra conversations in Italian and focus on the English. All the signs in English and traffic lights that you can actually see when you pull up to the light are so appreciated. Drivers who use signals, don’t pacman between lanes of traffic and don’t park the car under an overpass when it rains hard! Fast food is so bad but so fucking good! The 2 Krystal’s burgers I had the day after I got here were some of the best food I’ve put in my mouth. The food here is to die for, peach ice cream, BBQ ribs, chicken wings, steaks, fried everything, fruit beers…..Men actually flirt here and apparently I’ve not turned into a hag in the last 2 years. A very sexy, handsome 37 year old proportioned me for a little afternoon delight after multiple flirting chatting sessions in stop and go traffic on I-85 in Atlanta. I counter proposed that he not only fuck me after my lunch date with a GF but also join us (me & Viking) later for a 3some. His mind was appropriately blown away…lmao….but alas he did not take me up on the offer. I picked the Viking up on my way south from that lunch day so we’ve only had one night back together. We had dinner with my family at a local favorite since they were also celebrating one of my cousin’s 21st birthdays. After that we went to karaoke for a bit then headed to bed. We’re in Fla now visiting my Mom and her new husband for a few days before we fly home to Italy. He leaves for a year going to Turkey 4 days after we get home. I don’t have much hope of anything changing in that time. I’m afraid of what this year is going to bring but I’m also ready to face it, deal with it and move on. I don’t like being in limbo. In the meantime I’m trying to focus on what I can control, me, myself and I. I need to take the time to enjoy this last year in Italy and the people there who love me and want to spend time with me. Nothing I can do will change what is to be with the Viking. The outcome is squarely in his hands at this point. I’m just going to make the most of the hand I’m holding until a new one is dealt to me. M&M, the Knight and the new potential lover are all looking forward to my return and I’m looking forward to getting back to see them. I’m ready for a break and then a nice vacation with a hot young Val Kilmer look alike. Liberally sprinkled with lots of Knight and M&M delights! I’m so ridiculously horny and constantly dreaming about the Knight fucking me. Sometimes the dreams are group oriented but often it is just a replay of the amazing sex we’ve had in different places, times and configurations. Occasionally, I dream about wife M but not often. No matter who I’m dreaming about I wake up wet and wanton. My rabbit has been getting quite the work out this week. I’m ready to get home and get some seriously awesome sex again. I was down to 133-134 lbs before we left Italy but I haven't been on a scale since we've been here and don't plan to get back on one until I'll been home for a while. I'll get back to the exercise routine while I'm home a few weeks and get toning up again. I hope you are all having a fabulous Father’s Day weekend. Take care and love each other well. Here’s a new naked pic for you pervs. Kisses, L |
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welcome back. Kisses
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GOOD
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Hey sexiest of friends, I never got your email either lol! I think the site is being glitchy again. Anyway,I set up a private post so maybe try putting the info there. My old personal email got hacked so I deleted it, and wasn't sure if you sent the email to me there or through the site.
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Sorry to hear things with Viking aren't what you want right now. Sounds like you have a good handle on how to navigate through it along with other people to help you through it too. I sent you an email here my friend so we can connect, just an fyi because it appeared from auto reply you don't monitor it. Take care of you and talk soon I hope!
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I counter proposed that he not only fuck me after my lunch date with a GF but also join us (me & Viking) later for a 3some. His mind was appropriately blown away…lmao….but alas he did not take me up on the offer. You're sooooooo bad! Thoughts from the Garden...
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wow sexy!! I woud love to run into you in stop & go traffic!! Welcum back to the US!!!!!!!!!!!! Great pic of you!! sexy body!! Great legs..pretty face!!
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wow sexy!! I woud love to run into you in stop & go traffic!! Welcum back to the US!!!!!!!!!!!! Great pic of you!! sexy body!! Great legs..pretty face!!
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L ~ I'm sorry but not surprised to read things aren't getting any better, in fact they are getting worse between you & the Viking. If memory serves me this is a pattern of how his relationships go ... he seems to have a new one in the wings that has been brewing for awhile before he moves on. I find it interesting you refer to her as the mistress now and not the girlfriend. That is her role in the fiasco but I doubt she would like that title. Maybe you should get some divorce advise in the states to see which country would be the best place for you to file, if it should come to that, to protect yourself the most. Do you have any Primal Urges ... I do, please CUMHANDLEME and explore some of my naughty and nice Primal ... Urges with me !!!
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